Here is an absence peopled with references from books.
This chapel’s bank account has been frozen, this boy
Beside me has a garment with bitterness for a mother;
And a troubled face of mother-of-pearl. His looks
Are those of a lost shepherd. He claims no other
Place but here in this one Paradise without joy,
This strangely beautiful; this one Jerusalem:
Home is a flock lost at night, or a hypothetical Rome,
Or something in the silence of a steel engraving
From our old books. I’m thinking of that long view
Of the city from the road to Bethany, the star-
Shaped walls under cloud, sunlight tinting
The cumulus with silver and white. From afar
There’s the lost cantor’s son, a yellow glaze of Israel
Upon the stained earth. Shush! The coffee cup, the kiss
Of light falls on a Rabbi you have loved for years
And somebody begins to play the Fantasia of Bach’s
Partita in A minor – suddenly a torrent of light
Falls upon us all, an improvised device of music
To lift immemorial squalor, to ease heartache
And dispossession; to let us not perish
In the bitter pandemonium of those who fall out
With God. We rest against a most wretched, ancient wall
And kiss again where notes and pelargonia blossoms fall.