The following are extracts from Mr Ian Bailey's diaries, as heard in court yesterday.
Sunday, August 22nd, 1993:
"I beat her to such an extent that she required hospital treatment
"On reaching the house, I relived my assault and proceeded to cause further injury to her.
"I feel a sense of sickness at seeing my account of that dreadful night. I actually tried to kill her.
"At present, two nights on, she is badly hurt and walking injured with bruises on her face, lips and body...
"I have never had a history of violence towards women, yet of late, since Easter, on a number of occasions I have struck and abused my lover.
"I have always believed it is the worst crime one can commit against one's mother's sex."
May 15th, 1996:
"I am an animal on two feet...(in) one act of whiskey-filled madness, coupled and cracked in an act of such awful violence, I severely damaged you and made you feel death was near.
"In my heart I know that is not what I ever wanted to do.
"Although remorse-filled sentiments and disgust filled me, I am afraid for myself, it is a cowardly fear, and although I made grief of your life, I have destroyed my destiny ..."
September 15th, 1998:
"I'm so sorry that I beat you and distorted you.
"It's just one of the things that happens..."